Today is the last day in my hard month. June 12th to July 7th are the hardest time for me throughout the year. Today it is 2 years since Eilys' Funeral. I haven't really spoken about the funeral itself before, I don't really. But I wanted to blog about it to mark the day. I... Continue Reading →
Whilst walking to school this morning Dylan was dawdling so I stopped, waited for him to catch up and I held his hand to make him keep up with me. We were walking at a rapid pace as we were a little bit late (Dylan will tell you it was because I couldn't find my... Continue Reading →
I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →
There are so many things that took me by surprise about grieving... the main one being that it is not all about being horrendously sad. Of course that is a big part of the process and it is the part that doesn’t really change that much but it isn’t the only bit. The most surprising... Continue Reading →
Over the passed year I have been more proud of Dylan than I ever thought possible. He has grown up so much and he amazes me most days... he also drives me utterly insane most days too. Before Evan was born I was worried that he would maybe be cautious with having a new baby... Continue Reading →
Evan. Oh Evan. Where to start? Evan is a very happy, very smiley little guy. He has the long eyelashes that Joe, Dylan and Eilys have (unfortunately not me as they don’t seem to get passed on if you marry in). His hair is the most gorgeous strawberry blonde colour and dark brown eyes are... Continue Reading →
So a few months ago I had a little brainwave... Occasionally I have ideas, sometimes they are good and other times they are a little shit. This was a good one though (I thought). Now, I love a pin badge. I always have and I probably, hopefully, always will. They seem to be very cool... Continue Reading →
Dear Eilys Today should be your 3rd birthday. From your diagnosis we knew that you wouldn’t be here for this day but that doesn’t take away any of the sadness that you aren’t here. Happy Birthday beautiful girl. The last year has been so full of changes and we have tried to keep you with... Continue Reading →
Following on from my last post (that I wrote about a week ago but only just published)... Being a Mum in these modern times is bloody hard. Social media pressure, magazines and things on TV all geared to show us how we should be. But you know what, being a Mum isn't easy and photographs... Continue Reading →
