Saying Goodbye

Today is the last day in my hard month. June 12th to July 7th are the hardest time for me throughout the year. Today it is 2 years since Eilys' Funeral. I haven't really spoken about the funeral itself before, I don't really. But I wanted to blog about it to mark the day. I... Continue Reading →

2 years without Eilys

I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →

Snowdrops for Eilys

So a few months ago I had a little brainwave... Occasionally I have ideas, sometimes they are good and other times they are a little shit. This was a good one though (I thought). Now, I love a pin badge. I always have and I probably, hopefully, always will. They seem to be very cool... Continue Reading →

Dear Eilys

Dear Eilys Today should be your 3rd birthday. From your diagnosis we knew that you wouldn’t be here for this day but that doesn’t take away any of the sadness that you aren’t here. Happy Birthday beautiful girl. The last year has been so full of changes and we have tried to keep you with... Continue Reading →

Going from 1 to 2, twice

I have been thinking a lot recently about how different it has been during the first few months with Eilys and with Evan. I suppose I am in a fairly unique position in that I have gone from having one child to 2 children twice. It is a fairly unique experience but also very depressing... Continue Reading →

This Year

This has taken me a long time to write. January is a tough month for people. New beginnings aren't always welcome and saying goodbye to the old year can be hard. I tend to feel really flat in the gooch week between Christmas and New Year's Eve. New Year's Eve is my Mum's birthday so... Continue Reading →

That Moment

Since having Evan I have tried really hard to get out and about and to drag my ass to baby groups. I did this a lot with Dylan when he was a baby and we made some really lovely friends as a result. With Eilys I didn't. It was harder to go to a baby... Continue Reading →

Struggling

Struggling is not something I admit to often but at the moment I am. I don’t know if it is the time of year. I don’t know if it is because I am tired. I don’t know if it is because I am actually going insane. But I am struggling.  I didn’t for a second... Continue Reading →

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