Baby loss awareness week has made me feel very reflective. I have been thinking a lot of Eilys and about other babies who have died, I have been thinking about how parents navigate grief and how the wider family and friends cope too. Sometimes I feel like that Eilys' death hasn't changed me, that I... Continue Reading →
This week is Baby Loss Awareness Week. Baby loss is such an emotive topic and has so many facets to it. Eilys dying is the hardest thing that I have ever had to live through but it was not my first experience with baby loss. My best friend's first baby was stillborn. I wanted to... Continue Reading →
We have just been camping for the weekend. We love camping. Joe and I went camping quite a lot before we had children and we took Dylan camping when he was about a year old. We took Eilys "glamping" in a Yurt and we have taken Evan a couple of times. I love how free... Continue Reading →
Today is the last day in my hard month. June 12th to July 7th are the hardest time for me throughout the year. Today it is 2 years since Eilys' Funeral. I haven't really spoken about the funeral itself before, I don't really. But I wanted to blog about it to mark the day. I... Continue Reading →
I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →
There are so many things that took me by surprise about grieving... the main one being that it is not all about being horrendously sad. Of course that is a big part of the process and it is the part that doesn’t really change that much but it isn’t the only bit. The most surprising... Continue Reading →
So a few months ago I had a little brainwave... Occasionally I have ideas, sometimes they are good and other times they are a little shit. This was a good one though (I thought). Now, I love a pin badge. I always have and I probably, hopefully, always will. They seem to be very cool... Continue Reading →
I have been looking back quite a lot recently. Well, I say recently, I do it constantly. It is the mark of the grieving, I guess. Life is all about moving forward and moving on to the next thing but that is so impossible when such a huge chunk of you is left in the... Continue Reading →
People who say phrases that begin with “at least” to a grieving parent really suck balls... unless the whole sentence is “at least there is cake” But it is never “at least there is cake” it is usually “at least you have Dylan” or “at least you can have another baby” or “at least you... Continue Reading →
