Saying Goodbye

Today is the last day in my hard month. June 12th to July 7th are the hardest time for me throughout the year. Today it is 2 years since Eilys' Funeral. I haven't really spoken about the funeral itself before, I don't really. But I wanted to blog about it to mark the day. I... Continue Reading →

2 years without Eilys

I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →

Snowdrops for Eilys

So a few months ago I had a little brainwave... Occasionally I have ideas, sometimes they are good and other times they are a little shit. This was a good one though (I thought). Now, I love a pin badge. I always have and I probably, hopefully, always will. They seem to be very cool... Continue Reading →

Social Media Lies

I have been looking back quite a lot recently. Well, I say recently, I do it constantly. It is the mark of the grieving, I guess. Life is all about moving forward and moving on to the next thing but that is so impossible when such a huge chunk of you is left in the... Continue Reading →

At least…

People who say phrases that begin with “at least” to a grieving parent really suck balls... unless the whole sentence is “at least there is cake” But it is never “at least there is cake” it is usually “at least you have Dylan” or “at least you can have another baby” or “at least you... Continue Reading →

Grief Guilt

It is that time of year again. The bluebells are out. The sun is making more of an appearance. It is warmer. It is the time of year where I start to feel saddest. This time of year is always going to make me reminisce and feel sad. It is the anniversary of Eilys being very... Continue Reading →

A little update…

In my last blog post I wrote about how I was struggling a bit with anxiety and lack of sleep at the moment and I wanted to give a little update on how I am feeling. First of all, getting my ass to the gym felt so flipping good and the endorphins set me weekend... Continue Reading →

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