A few weeks ago I watched a program on Channel 5 about Stillbirth and it has really stuck with me. It is such a sad and emotive topic that it is rarely spoken about on TV so I wanted to watch to see what was said. The thing that stuck with my the most was... Continue Reading →
Grief Guilt
It is that time of year again. The bluebells are out. The sun is making more of an appearance. It is warmer. It is the time of year where I start to feel saddest. This time of year is always going to make me reminisce and feel sad. It is the anniversary of Eilys being very... Continue Reading →
A little update…
In my last blog post I wrote about how I was struggling a bit with anxiety and lack of sleep at the moment and I wanted to give a little update on how I am feeling. First of all, getting my ass to the gym felt so flipping good and the endorphins set me weekend... Continue Reading →
It’s OK to be not OK
I am a huge advocate of the “It’s ok” movement. Actually I am not sure that it really classes as a movement but you know what I mean. I am forever telling people that it is ok to feel however it is they are feeling and that talking about their feelings is the best thing... Continue Reading →
My Gran; love, life and laughter
On Tuesday we said our final goodbyes to my wonderful Gran. My Dad’s Mum was the last of my Grands. She hadn’t been very well for a long time and each time she was ill she didn’t bounce back as well. But the thing was that she always bounced back. And then she didn’t. As... Continue Reading →
This Year
This has taken me a long time to write. January is a tough month for people. New beginnings aren't always welcome and saying goodbye to the old year can be hard. I tend to feel really flat in the gooch week between Christmas and New Year's Eve. New Year's Eve is my Mum's birthday so... Continue Reading →
That Moment
Since having Evan I have tried really hard to get out and about and to drag my ass to baby groups. I did this a lot with Dylan when he was a baby and we made some really lovely friends as a result. With Eilys I didn't. It was harder to go to a baby... Continue Reading →
Baby Loss Awareness Week and the Wave of Light
Today marks the end of Baby Loss Awareness Week and tonight at 7pm there is the Global Wave of Light. Eilys being ill and losing her is the hardest thing that I have ever gone through but I have been so lucky through my grief. My family and friends have allowed us to grieve in... Continue Reading →
Worrying is not helpful
Hi, I am Emma and I worry. I worry about all sorts of stuff and for the most part I am rational and just work out the worries in my head and continue with my day. But during my pregnancy with Evan I worried a lot about having Evan. I suppose it is totally normal... Continue Reading →
