A local women’s charity/organisation is running a campaign trying to capture the full spectrum of motherhood from deciding to become a mother through to being a Grandparent. I wanted to join in because it was a good excuse to do some writing and sharing our stories is something I wish we did more. This is... Continue Reading →
It takes a Village…
"It takes a village" is an African proverb meaning that in order to raise a child one cannot just do it alone, one needs an entire community to help and guide the parents and the child. I was thinking about how true this was the other day and thinking how it also takes a village... Continue Reading →
4th time’s the hardest…
Today should have been Eilys' 4th birthday. Her 4th Birthday. Every time I think it or say it it hurts. This one seems to hurt more than the others did. I think the reason for this is that with turning 4 comes so many changes in a child's life. At 4 a child becomes their... Continue Reading →
Why purple?
Today should have been Eilys' 4th Birthday. On her birthday I ask people to wear something purple in her memory. Eilys always had a lot of purple things, she wore a lot of purple and it looked lovely on her. It suited her beautiful colouring. Her pale skin, her gingery/strawberry blonde hair and her intense... Continue Reading →
Pregnancy After Loss
I was expecting the early weeks of being pregnant to be hard. I knew that I would have to await the results of a test for SMA. I knew that the early weeks are stressful anyway, especially now that I am that little bit older. At 36 years old I am now classed as a... Continue Reading →
Wear Purple For Eilys Day 2019 – 12th June
One month today it should have been Eilys' 4th birthday. For the past 3 years on her birthday we have tried to keep it as her special day, a day of celebration rather than sadness. We'd love it if you could joining join in again this year with our Wear Purple for Eilys Day. It's... Continue Reading →
Writing Through Loss – Online writing group
Hellooooo It has been a while! So sorry I have zero excuses other than sometimes life gets busy and blogging isn't where my heads at. A few weeks ago I started an instagram based writing group to help with grief and loss. I am so happy with how people have embraced it and I thought... Continue Reading →
The things I would tell myself…
Baby loss awareness week has made me feel very reflective. I have been thinking a lot of Eilys and about other babies who have died, I have been thinking about how parents navigate grief and how the wider family and friends cope too. Sometimes I feel like that Eilys' death hasn't changed me, that I... Continue Reading →
Brandon
This week is Baby Loss Awareness Week. Baby loss is such an emotive topic and has so many facets to it. Eilys dying is the hardest thing that I have ever had to live through but it was not my first experience with baby loss. My best friend's first baby was stillborn. I wanted to... Continue Reading →