That Moment

Since having Evan I have tried really hard to get out and about and to drag my ass to baby groups. I did this a lot with Dylan when he was a baby and we made some really lovely friends as a result. With Eilys I didn't. It was harder to go to a baby... Continue Reading →

Struggling

Struggling is not something I admit to often but at the moment I am. I don’t know if it is the time of year. I don’t know if it is because I am tired. I don’t know if it is because I am actually going insane. But I am struggling.  I didn’t for a second... Continue Reading →

One Year…

One year 12 months 52 weeks 365 days 8760 hours 525600 minutes ...is a long time. It feels like forever and also like no time at all since Eilys was here. But today marks a year since she died. It is an anniversary I have been dreading. This year has been so hard to get... Continue Reading →

Eilys’ Experience List

I wanted to write this blog post on what should have been Eilys' 2nd birthday. Today is going to be a really sad day but I am going to try to make it a positive one too. Yes, today should have been her 2nd birthday and it is heartbreakingly sad that she isn't with us... Continue Reading →

Dealing with diagnosis

We went to Center Parcs at Sherwood forest when Eilys was a little over 3 months old. It was a lovely holiday and we all fell in love with the place. While we were away Eilys was trying her hardest to roll over and was very nearly managing it. She could sit quite well when... Continue Reading →

Wear Purple For Eilys Day

Today is 12th May which means it is 1 month until what should have been Eilys' 2nd Birthday. I wasn't looking forward to this anniversary at all. But her birthday was such a lovely day. We had a big party. She was surrounded by most of the people who loved her. It was a great... Continue Reading →

Bedtime blues

Most days I'm alright at the moment. I get through. I keep busy. I surround myself with people I love and memories I cherish. Some days are harder than others but I drag my ass through them. Grief is a sneaky little bugger. Sometimes it creeps up on you, othertimes you can't escape it like... Continue Reading →

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