Today should have been Eilys' 4th Birthday. On her birthday I ask people to wear something purple in her memory. Eilys always had a lot of purple things, she wore a lot of purple and it looked lovely on her. It suited her beautiful colouring. Her pale skin, her gingery/strawberry blonde hair and her intense... Continue Reading →
Limbo part 2
Written on 29th March... Following on from this post So we pick up the limbo part 2 story on the Wednesday after I had the NIPD blood test… We had been waiting 9 days. To be totally honest my brain was in a pretty dark place. I wasn’t sleeping very well at all. I am very... Continue Reading →
Wear Purple For Eilys Day 2019 – 12th June
One month today it should have been Eilys' 4th birthday. For the past 3 years on her birthday we have tried to keep it as her special day, a day of celebration rather than sadness. We'd love it if you could joining join in again this year with our Wear Purple for Eilys Day. It's... Continue Reading →
2 years without Eilys
I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →
That Moment
Since having Evan I have tried really hard to get out and about and to drag my ass to baby groups. I did this a lot with Dylan when he was a baby and we made some really lovely friends as a result. With Eilys I didn't. It was harder to go to a baby... Continue Reading →
Struggling
Struggling is not something I admit to often but at the moment I am. I don’t know if it is the time of year. I don’t know if it is because I am tired. I don’t know if it is because I am actually going insane. But I am struggling. I didn’t for a second... Continue Reading →
Baby Loss Awareness Week and the Wave of Light
Today marks the end of Baby Loss Awareness Week and tonight at 7pm there is the Global Wave of Light. Eilys being ill and losing her is the hardest thing that I have ever gone through but I have been so lucky through my grief. My family and friends have allowed us to grieve in... Continue Reading →
One Year…
One year 12 months 52 weeks 365 days 8760 hours 525600 minutes ...is a long time. It feels like forever and also like no time at all since Eilys was here. But today marks a year since she died. It is an anniversary I have been dreading. This year has been so hard to get... Continue Reading →
Eilys’ Experience List
I wanted to write this blog post on what should have been Eilys' 2nd birthday. Today is going to be a really sad day but I am going to try to make it a positive one too. Yes, today should have been her 2nd birthday and it is heartbreakingly sad that she isn't with us... Continue Reading →