Since having Evan I have tried really hard to get out and about and to drag my ass to baby groups. I did this a lot with Dylan when he was a baby and we made some really lovely friends as a result. With Eilys I didn't. It was harder to go to a baby... Continue Reading →
Struggling is not something I admit to often but at the moment I am. I don’t know if it is the time of year. I don’t know if it is because I am tired. I don’t know if it is because I am actually going insane. But I am struggling. I didn’t for a second... Continue Reading →
Today marks the end of Baby Loss Awareness Week and tonight at 7pm there is the Global Wave of Light. Eilys being ill and losing her is the hardest thing that I have ever gone through but I have been so lucky through my grief. My family and friends have allowed us to grieve in... Continue Reading →
One year 12 months 52 weeks 365 days 8760 hours 525600 minutes ...is a long time. It feels like forever and also like no time at all since Eilys was here. But today marks a year since she died. It is an anniversary I have been dreading. This year has been so hard to get... Continue Reading →
I wanted to write this blog post on what should have been Eilys' 2nd birthday. Today is going to be a really sad day but I am going to try to make it a positive one too. Yes, today should have been her 2nd birthday and it is heartbreakingly sad that she isn't with us... Continue Reading →
We went to Center Parcs at Sherwood forest when Eilys was a little over 3 months old. It was a lovely holiday and we all fell in love with the place. While we were away Eilys was trying her hardest to roll over and was very nearly managing it. She could sit quite well when... Continue Reading →
Today is 12th May which means it is 1 month until what should have been Eilys' 2nd Birthday. I wasn't looking forward to this anniversary at all. But her birthday was such a lovely day. We had a big party. She was surrounded by most of the people who loved her. It was a great... Continue Reading →
Most days I'm alright at the moment. I get through. I keep busy. I surround myself with people I love and memories I cherish. Some days are harder than others but I drag my ass through them. Grief is a sneaky little bugger. Sometimes it creeps up on you, othertimes you can't escape it like... Continue Reading →
We were told that our daughter, Eilys, had a terminal condition when she was 6 months old. Actually we were told the day before she was 6 months old. I can’t remember the words the Doctor said, I remember the tone of his voice, the rhythm of his words and the sad look in the... Continue Reading →
