It takes a Village…

"It takes a village" is an African proverb meaning that in order to raise a child one cannot just do it alone, one needs an entire community to help and guide the parents and the child. I was thinking about how true this was the other day and thinking how it also takes a village... Continue Reading →

4th time’s the hardest…

Today should have been Eilys' 4th birthday. Her 4th Birthday. Every time I think it or say it it hurts. This one seems to hurt more than the others did. I think the reason for this is that with turning 4 comes so many changes in a child's life. At 4 a child becomes their... Continue Reading →

Pregnancy After Loss

I was expecting the early weeks of being pregnant to be hard. I knew that I would have to await the results of a test for SMA. I knew that the early weeks are stressful anyway, especially now that I am that little bit older. At 36 years old I am now classed as a... Continue Reading →

Saying Goodbye

Today is the last day in my hard month. June 12th to July 7th are the hardest time for me throughout the year. Today it is 2 years since Eilys' Funeral. I haven't really spoken about the funeral itself before, I don't really. But I wanted to blog about it to mark the day. I... Continue Reading →

2 years without Eilys

I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →

At least…

People who say phrases that begin with “at least” to a grieving parent really suck balls... unless the whole sentence is “at least there is cake” But it is never “at least there is cake” it is usually “at least you have Dylan” or “at least you can have another baby” or “at least you... Continue Reading →

Struggling

Struggling is not something I admit to often but at the moment I am. I don’t know if it is the time of year. I don’t know if it is because I am tired. I don’t know if it is because I am actually going insane. But I am struggling.  I didn’t for a second... Continue Reading →

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