Baby loss awareness week has made me feel very reflective. I have been thinking a lot of Eilys and about other babies who have died, I have been thinking about how parents navigate grief and how the wider family and friends cope too. Sometimes I feel like that Eilys' death hasn't changed me, that I... Continue Reading →
This week is Baby Loss Awareness Week. Baby loss is such an emotive topic and has so many facets to it. Eilys dying is the hardest thing that I have ever had to live through but it was not my first experience with baby loss. My best friend's first baby was stillborn. I wanted to... Continue Reading →
Today is the last day in my hard month. June 12th to July 7th are the hardest time for me throughout the year. Today it is 2 years since Eilys' Funeral. I haven't really spoken about the funeral itself before, I don't really. But I wanted to blog about it to mark the day. I... Continue Reading →
I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →
There are so many things that took me by surprise about grieving... the main one being that it is not all about being horrendously sad. Of course that is a big part of the process and it is the part that doesn’t really change that much but it isn’t the only bit. The most surprising... Continue Reading →
Dear Eilys Today should be your 3rd birthday. From your diagnosis we knew that you wouldn’t be here for this day but that doesn’t take away any of the sadness that you aren’t here. Happy Birthday beautiful girl. The last year has been so full of changes and we have tried to keep you with... Continue Reading →
People who say phrases that begin with “at least” to a grieving parent really suck balls... unless the whole sentence is “at least there is cake” But it is never “at least there is cake” it is usually “at least you have Dylan” or “at least you can have another baby” or “at least you... Continue Reading →
A few weeks ago I watched a program on Channel 5 about Stillbirth and it has really stuck with me. It is such a sad and emotive topic that it is rarely spoken about on TV so I wanted to watch to see what was said. The thing that stuck with my the most was... Continue Reading →
This has taken me a long time to write. January is a tough month for people. New beginnings aren't always welcome and saying goodbye to the old year can be hard. I tend to feel really flat in the gooch week between Christmas and New Year's Eve. New Year's Eve is my Mum's birthday so... Continue Reading →
