My Beautiful Blessingway

As many of you know, and those who don't HOW?, I am expecting baby number 4. I have never had a baby shower for any of the other babies... I know, poor me! Haha, I am kidding. To be honest I have always found "Baby Showers" a bit weird, a bit too  American and some... Continue Reading →

Waters Breaking…

...They haven't before you start getting overly excited... When I was pregnant with Dylan my waters broke at about 3am in the morning on Sunday after we went for a long walk around a castle (Beeston Castle, it is a lovely place to visit). I woke up, waddled down the hall, sat on the loo... Continue Reading →

A Big Decision

And there I was minding my own business on a Thursday morning, going about my post summer holiday Mumdmin (a massive fuck off pile of washing) and I get a message from my lovely One to One midwife asking me how I am. Not too bad thanks, I tell her. To which she replies that... Continue Reading →

After the shock…

I am still in the fog of trying to decide what I am going to do in regards to my Maternity care. I have no idea what is going on with it all. I have called the local hospital to be allocated a community midwife. Obviously with such a huge number of people booking in... Continue Reading →

Pregnancy After Loss

I was expecting the early weeks of being pregnant to be hard. I knew that I would have to await the results of a test for SMA. I knew that the early weeks are stressful anyway, especially now that I am that little bit older. At 36 years old I am now classed as a... Continue Reading →

The things I would tell myself…

Baby loss awareness week has made me feel very reflective. I have been thinking a lot of Eilys and about other babies who have died, I have been thinking about how parents navigate grief and how the wider family and friends cope too. Sometimes I feel like that Eilys' death hasn't changed me, that I... Continue Reading →

Brandon

This week is Baby Loss Awareness Week. Baby loss is such an emotive topic and has so many facets to it. Eilys dying is the hardest thing that I have ever had to live through but it was not my first experience with baby loss. My best friend's first baby was stillborn. I wanted to... Continue Reading →

Evan: An Update at 10 months

Evan. Oh Evan. Where to start? Evan is a very happy, very smiley little guy. He has the long eyelashes that Joe, Dylan and Eilys have (unfortunately not me as they don’t seem to get passed on if you marry in). His hair is the most gorgeous strawberry blonde colour and dark brown eyes are... Continue Reading →

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