2 years without Eilys

I can’t believe that it has been 2 years since Eilys died. 2 years. I say these cliches all the time, it feels like forever ago and no time at all. Some days I wonder how I have come to this point. None of it seems real. Eilys was here and now she isn’t. It... Continue Reading →

Evan: An Update at 10 months

Evan. Oh Evan. Where to start? Evan is a very happy, very smiley little guy. He has the long eyelashes that Joe, Dylan and Eilys have (unfortunately not me as they don’t seem to get passed on if you marry in). His hair is the most gorgeous strawberry blonde colour and dark brown eyes are... Continue Reading →

Dear Eilys

Dear Eilys Today should be your 3rd birthday. From your diagnosis we knew that you wouldn’t be here for this day but that doesn’t take away any of the sadness that you aren’t here. Happy Birthday beautiful girl. The last year has been so full of changes and we have tried to keep you with... Continue Reading →

Social Media Lies

I have been looking back quite a lot recently. Well, I say recently, I do it constantly. It is the mark of the grieving, I guess. Life is all about moving forward and moving on to the next thing but that is so impossible when such a huge chunk of you is left in the... Continue Reading →

Grief Guilt

It is that time of year again. The bluebells are out. The sun is making more of an appearance. It is warmer. It is the time of year where I start to feel saddest. This time of year is always going to make me reminisce and feel sad. It is the anniversary of Eilys being very... Continue Reading →

Going from 1 to 2, twice

I have been thinking a lot recently about how different it has been during the first few months with Eilys and with Evan. I suppose I am in a fairly unique position in that I have gone from having one child to 2 children twice. It is a fairly unique experience but also very depressing... Continue Reading →

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